Will It Be Different?

Will It Be Different?
Jasmine B. Suiza
26 Feb 2022


Sometimes I wonder if life will be different if I have someone.

Will there be someone who can comfort me when I feel burdened,
Or someone who can calm me down when I experience moments of panic?
Will there be someone who will stay when all of my brokenness surfaces,
Or someone who can tell me I am valued even I don't appreciate myself?

Will this ramen I am slurping taste a bit more umami?
Will the songs I sing sound more heartfelt?
Will traveling be more enjoyable?
Will I be able to write more poems and express my thoughts better?

Will there be someone who will see through all the ugly, broken, and beautiful pieces of me?

Sometimes, I just wonder.

[Written while slurping my ramen, at Modan Yaki Japanese Restaurant]



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